ziparis

I’m becoming too reliant on you. Is that a bad thing? I don’t see it as such. It is if you lose some part of your self… become dependent. We help each other. You help me. Not so much, really. Well enough for me, and I’m happy to help out in the ways I do. You want something from me. Yes - I want you to be happy, and… Stable? Yes. What if I’m not strong enough to go out on my own, be on my own? What does that make me? You don’t have to do everything on your own… life is a collaborative process. But you could make it on your own - you have. But I don’t want to! But you can. This is absurd. I want to be strong enough to make it on my own. You know how cold it is out there? How brutal the world can be? That’s the point… and you can make it. You can hold your own in it. I hate it out there. But you can cope. That’s not much of a victory. I basically have to give up a piece of my soul every time I step out the door. The bullshit and the backstabbing out there is… relentless. And I’m safe